A Start

It is amazing how God has blessed me lately... With a job I love, great friends and a beautiful place to live.

I have got a couple passions, mountain biking, God, and the newest one is motorcycles. I have always had a desire to reach the lost through mountain bikes. I wonder what has happened to that desire lately. Has God put it on hold or has He moved me on to another stage in life... I hope not! I always felt that God would use mountain biking to reach other people through me. What has happened to that desire ( I guess I should look deeper) I feel to some extent that I have lost my hunger to see God reach people since I have been at Glen Eyrie. I love seeing people being able to worship God at the Glen, but I am doing nothing to reach the lost. Where is the passion, it used to be so strong in my life, what happened to it??? Did I become callous and hardened towards those who need him most. I have no compassion for those who do not know the Lord, why is this, what happened, how did I get so far off track. I guess I cannot say I have no compassion, I have compassion for a couple people who do not know Christ. I focus on making Glen Eyrie beautiful every day, I wish that I had the passion for the lost that I do for God's Creation.

Where does God want me, How does he want me to reach people. The one major problem I have living and working at Glen Eyrie is that I have no contact with people who are not saved. It sometimes feels like a trap to be in this bubble. It is even refreshing during those times when I get out away from Christians and get into the normal world whether it is at the bike shop or at independent records. If the only people who are in your life are Christians can you still effectively minister to the lost, or is it enough to seek to minister to those who reach out to the lost. I do struggle with doubts about whether the Glen is where God wants me. I feel like I could be used by Him more effectively somewhere else but where is that somewhere else. I do not want to be content I want God to spur me on to follow Him with a greater and greater passion, a passion I lack now...I have faith God will lift me towards Him and I know I can never do His will on my own. What is your will in my life Lord. I search it out and ache to be near you but have that one persistent sin in my life that seems to impede that and may be the root of my lack of desire. What a ramble, I guess once it gets started I have a hard time reaching a dropping off point :-)