Things I own keep having catastrophic failures :-<

I do not know how this keeps happening but I just seem to break stuff alot. I guess what brought all this on is not even something I did but I am dealing with the after effects of a destructive force inside of a jeep engine. It really sucks to try to get parts of an engine with a piston sticking out. que fuzzy picture

Actually this is a car I got from my Uncle and Aunt. It was a real blessing because I have been able to put together a decent car for under 1500 dollars. I am moving off the Glen in the next couple weeks which is a really good thing. I have been aching to do it for a while. It is kind've grinding living under the watchful I of derek strickler and being possibly held responsible for other peoples errors all the time. below is a picture of the house we will hopefully get. It is a really cool house built in 1914. I went in the house the first time and it just felt right. Even when I saw it on the net I was like this is the perfect house.



So we'll just have to wait and see if we get it. It would be really exciting to live in an older area of town. The newer areas of town are kind've dead feeling with all the cookie cutter houses (at least the ones we can afford)

I have been sitting here pondering what I was going to write about in the first place. I started thinking about the house and kind've got off track.

I think that one of the big things about places I go and places I live is the feeling of the place. The right feeling maybe cool peaceful, i am not sure what exactly that feeling is. Jeremy was talking about how he was hoping to find a house that felt right. But I think it is more then that. I think that different aspects of the house add up to a certian feeling and for some reason older houses tend to feel more "warm and fuzzy" then newer houses. I am not sure if it is the quality of material that they were built with or what.

At the Glen I have drawn up alot of plans for different places to meditate. But without fail everything I've done changes a little in the final product. To make it fit more with the landscape and unfortunately sometimes more into the budget I have almost always changed placement or shape.

I really hope that as i move away from the Glen I will be able to experience the amazing peace that people find there more when I do not spend all my time there. Also i hope that I will be able to get more inspired because I do not see the Glen 24/7 I will be able to step back and really push creativity into all the aspects of my job and really create a even better place for people to come and meditate on the Lord.

At the Glen if a place does not help people focus on God i 'm not sure if it is worth creating.

How does all this relate to the original thing about castrophic failures. Even as I want change and new things my time in facilties at the Glen has enabled me to see that I need to maintain the landscape and not just create new stuff no matter how tempting it is.