It has been a very busy summer. I worked with joey to supervise the NCP crew at Glen Eyrie. I was taught a lot about why I can infuriate my boss sometimes but also how valuable communications skills are when relating to people working under me. I have been told it relates more to volunteers then to employees but I do not agree. Most work environments would be so much better if the boss effectively communicated his desires to the employees and included some praise and encouragement.
The summer was also a really dry time spiritually. I love being around people and so I sometimes let myself get distracted by all the fun people around me. I probably spent a total of 3 or 4 hrs of time in the word the past two months if you do not include church. I did not participate in the Bible Study I usually go to because of time. It has been really encouraging to spend some time in the word since NCP left. I sometimes forget that I need to be rejuvenated and spend time by myself with God.
I just got done reading a book called Me Talk Pretty One Day by David Sedaris. It was funny but at the same time really depressing. The guy was so self-involved and had such low self esteem. He was always worried about his approval by others. I think the most depressing thing was that it did not seem like there was any point to his life.
I tend to be pretty generous with my stuff and I try to separate the two but it does not always work. Case in point. I really like this girl at church and I knew she needed some help this one particular month. I felt like God was calling me to help her out so I gave her some money for the month, not even thinking that she might find it awkward or that it would have any appearance of me giving her the money to get her to like me. I knew the second I gave it to her that I should have figured out some way to give the money anonymously, because she totally flipped out. I left real quickly and I am not sure how to deal with the whole situation. Has this doomed any thoughts I might have of something more then friendship?? I struggle with whether to pursue anything more now. I realize I may have put her in an awkward situation but at the same time... ...was god showing me something by the way she reacted. I am just going to give it some time and see which way God moves the whole situation later.
On a totally different note
This summer I made slow progress on the hybrid jeep. No this does not mean electric/gas in this case it means a combination of an old school wagoneer and a 86' cherokee. Back in April we cut the top off the cherokee and it just set their for a while. Then the engine went kappoot and it set their some more. We pulled the body of the wagoneer and shortened the frame. Then sometime in July, Jev and I stripped all the drivetrain off the cherokee and we were ready for the frame fitting.
Last weekend and today I fit the body to the frame and now it almost looks like the cherokee is supposed to sit on the wagoneer.
