Looking back over my blog the past couple days I can see a thread running through it that I had not realized had been going for so long...
It seems it started and then tapered off after Glen Eyrie. I still wonder why so many times working for a Christian organization can serve the purpose to drive people away from God instead of drawing people to him. I wonder if it is the intense exposure to Christians at there best and worst all the time?
One thing that it is easy to forget I think is that all people who are Christians are still human, they sin, they doubt, they run back to God and they put fish bumper stickers on there car and then drive horribly. Sometimes I think that do and have forgotten that. One of the main struggles I have always had is separating Christians the people, from God. I think most of my struggles with my faith have been related to that.
Since we are all fallable and broken it makes sense that we will never be perfect...
Over the years the main thing I have had to learn is that my belief in God has to be separated from how his followers act. It is so much easier to remember the bad then the good and the experiences that I had with people who called themselves followers of Jesus when I worked with the Navigators jaded me for a long time. I know I had so many wonderful experiences there and made so many life long friends. Sometimes in the past I failed to realize that.
None of this is to say that it should not drive you crazy when Christians do or say stupid things. When Christians spout hate in the name of God or express racism in stead of love towards any of our brothers and sisters.
We need to bring Christianity back to its core where it is focused on us showing God's love to others, not focused on what they are doing but what God wants us to do for them.
Even the people who drive me crazy, because I think "How can they do that and still call themselves a Christian" I need to be showing love to them to. I am thankful that after the couple years of my doubts having a war with who I knew God was, I am able to say that my eyes are open to both the good and the bad the Christians do, and that to a large extent when I see Christians including my self doing things that are the opposite of what God wants that I can still believe in Him.
